20 January 2010

Creativity and Perfection

I have what I call creativity ADD & I want to make people happy with my creativity. I'm slow, everyone knows that. I have a lot on my plate & I over project myself - usually with projects for other people. I want projects for others to be perfect. A lot of times I get stumped on items, which cause delays - either in the beginning or the middle. But I put a lot of thought & effort in everything I make other people. When I'm stumped it takes me awhile - I'm not a "quick on her feet thinker." I mull over different options. Constantly asking, "Which is best?" "Which will look good?" Because I care for the person & I want them to have something they can wear proudly. So my slowness is not done on purpose. It's because I want it to be perfect.

And it hurts when I'm taken for granted. It hurts that my slowness is misunderstood. It hurts when I'm talked down by someone thinking they're better than me. So to try and make that person happy I send out a half-assed project, a finished project that they won't like, a finished product I'm not happy with, & a finished product that they're like "this is it?" and no thank you for your effort.

That is a waste of my time. And it hurts being misunderstood, especially when I put my projects on hold to do things for others.

11 comments:

Laura said...

You are amazing with your projects!

You are so generous with your time doing projects for others and helping others do their projects.

I'm sorry you have gotten your feelings hurt and feel taken for granted! The powerful words of THANK YOU go along way and I'm sorry you aren't hearing that from certain people.

You are amazingly talented!

Sherri said...

Oh dear!
That is the worse...to feel unappreciated!
Sometimes being too nice can back fire..but it is still worth it in the end...I think?!

julie said...

LAME...GIVE ME THEIR ADDRESS I'LL TAKE OF EM.

STEPHANIE I HAVE YET TO HEAR ANYTHING BUT PRAISES SUNG ON YOUR BEHALF...I'M SO SORRY SOMEONE TOOK YOU FOR GRANTED. IT IS SO EVIDENT TO ME THAT YOU ALWAYS PUT OTHERS FIRST.

Meg and Joe said...

I'm so sorry Steph. You are so kind in doing things for other people and others should realize tha. When one gives them a gift, they can't dictate when and what. What has happened to gratitude? But don't let them get you down. You're amazing!!

5Youngers said...

You are an amazingly creative person who shares her talents with others. You give freely of your time and that is very generous. Sorry you had your feelings hurt. I know I have love any and all project that I have been blessed with from you. T H A N K Y O U!

Derek Young said...

Tell me who it is and I will punch them in the face. No body takes advantage of my sister.

I'm so angry right now. I think this is kinda how alladin felt when jafar stole jasmine and put her in the hour glass and then turned into a snake.

Kim said...

Steph ~ that sucks! I also feel very indignant on your behalf. Don't listen to others at all!! You're one of the most talented people I know.

Nancy said...

You are sometimes too generous with your time, take a break and do stuff for Stephanie now. Thank you for being you!!

Family Fun said...

Hey girl-
Hope you have a better day! I think you are GREAT!

Ivon said...

Hey youngin, I do have some things you could do for me. Of course, after some "self" time for you. :)

The Steve said...

Speaking of projects, mind making me a set of pajamas ? I will hook you up with my measurements. I am envisioning a set that looks like this:

http://imsteve.net/files/images/steves_pj.jpg

Thanks a ton !