I've been thinking...

If I don't find a job my adventure ends at 6 months, which would be the the same time that my lease and classes will end. I'm thinking maybe 6 months is a good. I've learned a lot, I found classes right after I arrived that are classes I've been searching for and couldn't find in the states, I would have my family history trips completed by then. It would have been the perfect length of time.

And above all, I'm so lonely.

I don't easily make friends. I don't do small talk, or more that I can't do small talk. This is really hard to admit and please bear with me while I get it out. This is my therapy. I have no one to talk to so this is my only way. I'm sorry. I'm afraid I may be getting a bit depressed. I think this because of my sleep schedule. It is so messed up. Last week I wasn't able sleep until 3 or sometimes 5 which of course caused me to sleep the days away. I'm now able to go to sleep at a decent time but I'm still sleeping 12 or more hours. And I keep having melancholy days or "lazy days." Don't get me wrong I love lazy days, but only once in awhile. Not several days in a row for a couple of weeks.

It would be different if I had someone to share this with. Someone to talk to about the things I've seen and done. Back home I would do things by myself (Granted, mainly with my sister or friends) but there were many times I did things by myself, which is why I didn't think this would be so hard. But it is.

Guess what I'm going to do on Saturday? Checking out a castle! It's 4 KM from me so it'll be a nice walk. (I'm not putting it off, they're only opened on the weekends during the winter.) There's a nearby town that I want to check out which I think I'm going to do that tomorrow. I found a tour that I want to take which will take me up to the highlands and its only 36 quid. (It'll take me to Loch Ness among other places) and now I just need to find the date. I'm also planning a trip to Edinburgh and when I was talking to a man at the bus stop he was telling me that I need to check out the church in Rossalyn, so I'll be doing that when I go to Edinburgh as well.

I have a really nice Bishop in my ward. It's a small ward but they're very nice. Sunday was my first time there. The Bishop gave me a ride to the bus stop in Larkhall and his youngest son was with us, he was trying to teach me to speak with a scottish accent. He was so stinkin' cute! And if you're wondering about the accent lessons, they didn't go very well. I would repeat what he said and to me it sounded exactly the same but I could tell by the look on his face that it wasn't right. But in my defense, I had to take speech therapy growing up for my "r's" so my "r's" are very pronounced unlike here. :-)

On another note, those cookies (they taste like Pepperidge Farm Bordeaux cookies but with one side dipped in chocolate) that I fell in love with are hard for me to find. Every time I go into a grocery store I look but no luck. But I'm gonna keep looking!

I'm working hard on my family history and I should be done this week organizing what I have (then I can send it to some siblings) and mapping out where I need to travel to in Wales, England, Denmark, and Germany.

I think I'm going to go back to working on my family history now. :-)